Hello, Here we go again at my first post. I don't know how many times I've been writing a first post in my hundred blogs. Yeah, I admit it, I do have hundred blogs haha. I didn't mean to, but I have such a complicated situation in real life that make me have to delete my old blogs and create a new one. If you are one of my fans of my old blogs, of course you know why I have to do that.

It's just that I don't feel comfortable if my friends in real life or my family read my blog. Sometimes I wrote about my deepest feeling about people around me. Sometimes it's about my ex, my best friends, my mom, my sister, etc. It would be awkward if one of them read what I wrote. But then, my biggest fear happened. All of sudden, in a very sunny day where I can hear birds chirping around, flying through the sky, and then eating their fluffy worms from the ground? (loool) I knew there was something wrong coz all of my friends came to me and said, "Omg, I didn't know you have such a pathetic past..." or ... " I didn't know you have such a bad childhood and bla bla..." and "I'm so sorry for what you've been through..."

And I was like... whatthe...

 Honestly, I've been so paranoid since then. I need a blog so I can talk about everything. Sometimes it's not enough for me to just talk to people because sometimes people don't understand me , and I  can't really talk what I want to talk. I know it doesn't make any sense, but I know we all sometimes can't seem to explain how we actually felt. So yeah, this time I really want this blog could exist forever. And actually, one of the reason I make this blog is so I can practice my english heheh. People said my grammar is the worst of the worst, so bear with me if you find any grammatical error.

Be a Grammar Nazi for me heheheh.